Christmas Picture

Well here it is the Christmas picture for 2008!!! If I do say so....I did not have to cry or yell to get my kids to cooperate this year!!! This pictures means so much more than last year, since no one had to nearly die in order to get Christmas cards out this year!!! AND to make it better, this is technically the first picture of all of them together.....makes me all gitty inside!!!

PITA PITA

As I sit here trying to get motivated to get some homework done.

The BIG kids are with their Step-mom

Colby is watching Curious George

I am really only surfing the net.....

Colby comes running in....

Hey MOM (I wish he would say MAMA still)

I want a PITA PITA

A WHAT

a PITA PITA

I am confused....

So he grabbed my hand and led the way to the kitchen.....

he wants.... A PIECE OF PIZZA...

I am still giggly.....

Forcing Myself

I decided last night that it was time for me to "figure out" why I dislike Winter so much....I know that I do not HATE it...After finding out all my reasons why I do not enjoy Winter.... I made myself find the things I do love about Winter:

1. I LOVE when Wiser Lake is frozen and snow capped!!!
2. Love Mt. Baker Sunrises, makes driving on ICY Hannegan more pleasurable.
3. FRONT STREET....Cutzi's pic will tell that story.....so storybook!!!
4. Bundled up babies that can barely walk in snowsuits.

Yep that was it.... BUT

I think if I had Winter clothing I would enjoy it much more!!!
It's a pictureless post....DEAL.....or go check out Cutzi's Front St picture...maybe I will steal it!!! -----YEP stole it....hope she doesn't care!!

My New Spirit.....

As most of my 4 readers know....This past Christmas I lost something very dear to me...

.....my Hard Drive...

Oh did I mention it was the Hard Drive that had EVERY SINGLE PICTURE OF COLBY on it....

While I do have high hopes in retrieving these pictures, my heart is broke. I am sick to my stomach!!

To make it even worse I also lost the will to take more pictures. I dont think I have taken one picture since Christmas.....until tonight...

Tonight was a special night.... I picked up my camera and took pictures of my baby. After seeing his smile once again... I do not feel like it is a waste of time taking pictures of him.

Motivation

Lately I have been a bit on the overly motivated side. I always feel so accompished when the majority of my life is in order:

Bills are paid

Homework is Done

House is Clean

I always feel so much stress lifted if I can get these 3 things off my mind.

I wonder why

Beginning of the End

Today it hit me that Colby REALLY is growing up and isn't always going to be a baby. For most people this is obvious, but to a mother speaking of her last child it is a HARSH reality.

Lately, I would say in the last 2 weeks or so Colby has been daily coming up with new words. Coming up with new attitudes, new uses for his eyebrows, new words being used in correct fashions, and most importantly a new name to call his mommy.

I am no longer mommy, I am now MA......WHAT??? How is he old enough to be trying to call me mom...and worse calling me mom when he is clearly angry with my actions of trying to do routine daily activities, which are all now signs that he too has an opinion!!

This is SO DEPRESSING......I want my baby back. I would much rather have the baby days back then realize he is just one of the kids, who is growing up. I want my delusional reality back, my life when sitting in my chair rocking my baby to sleep, because we are up yet again. Being sleep deprived is sounding much more appealing than the road ahead.

I am sure these thoughts are supposed to go through your head BEFORE deciding to have another child. I must say that the natural high you get, when you are craving new life, is a strong high!!!! It blinds you of the reality of the next 18 years~~~

As we approach Colby's 2nd Birthday, Mom will slowly let go, and join the rest of the mommies who too had to let go of their Mommy names and watch their young children grow into beautiful little humans. Well that is if I can get him to quit shooting me, aside from that I am positive he will grown into a wonderful man.

My Peyton Journey

My Peyton is almost 9 now, 3 weeks from today to be exact!!!

Some of you know of my journey with my oldest son Peyton. He has had quite an eventful life filled with many struggles and alot of frustration and many tears.

He has come a long way when it comes to his ability to learn and interact with other children. Since Peyton was 4 years old he has had an IEP, and Individualized Education Plan. He was recognized for needing extra help in speech as well as his social skills.

As of today, he no longer qualifies and will be graduating from speech class.

I have waited for this day since he was about 2.

Peyton is a sweet boy and I am excited for him. He is growing up to be quite the little gentleman.

Love you Pey!

Bloggin Hiatus...

It is time for me to return to "trying" to be a faithful blogger....We will see how that goes!